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You've let yourself go 

In more ways than one, over these last two weeks, I've had the ups & downs, the all arounds, and I just want to be done with it!!
I'm a compulsive person, & so lately, with the goodies, drinks, and other distractions, I've given in.
I've sabatoged my efforts, and I'm the only one worth blaming. As I've wrote before, there are those people that say, "You only live once, so enjoy!" I'm not dedicated enough to this idea of a healthy lifestyle, and that's the hardest thing for me to admit, since I'm such a PRO health person, and looking back, if I would've stuck with the ideals of my plans before, I'd be there, or at least halfway.
I'm not going to worry about it, but I'm going to make this change, even though it's probably the 100th time I'm stating this.
This morning, i went to put on some jeans, that have always fit well, & they were tough to button, plus my midriff feels like it's going to take over, and I'm just in a sad state for my health today.
I have nothing to say how differently I'm going to make changes than what I've said before, but I'm seriously considering just giving it my all, dedicating myself to myself, and not letting exterior distractions get the best of me.
I know that this is possible, and I know that life will & has gotten in the way, but for once, the fire isn't to start, because I'm slowly coming along, but it's to kick life in the ass & tell it that I'm in control.
I've never felt this, and I'm half excited, half nervous, but mostly I feel in control. I had a workout on Tues, that left me feeling like a crippled person on Wed, and I know it's because I pushed myself, but I know more in my heart, that it's because I haven't been 110% with myself, and THAT hurt more than any soreness could!
I'm not giving up, because I know that somewhere, someone is doing my sets for a warm up, and that pushes me. It's not that hard, when you think about it, to do something everyday for yourself, that will help you in so many ways than a couple!!
Every professional was a beginner who didn't give up, so believe in yourself, challange life, and know that it's possible!!!!!!
I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

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  • From: daringirl67 about 5 months ago

    Believe in yourself Sarah. I know you have it in you. I believe that you mean what you say. I believe that you can push yourself and do it. You had a set back. Now it is time to get on it! A great workout always makes one feel so accomplished. It makes you feel strong. It is possible! You will do it!

  • From: ameeramstead about 5 months ago

    Thank you for this post! I've also had a million fresh starts, and that's okay. We pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and keep going. You've got this.

  • From: bvalcourt about 5 months ago

    This was really great. I too have had a ton of starts and been in the same mind set, you only live once. But you have to figure out the why's of your self defeating behaviour. It takes time and energy but I think if you don't then you fall back into old habits and it is not something that is a quick fix, it takes time and it evolves and changes all the time. It is all doable and you can do it, make yourself a priority and think about what your future self will say. I want mine to say thank you.

  • From: LoveMom31 about 5 months ago

    I agree with everyone Sarah. You have it in you we all know you do. I also believe in what you are telling us. We all have our days and weeks even months. You are doing the right thing. Getting back on and going again. That is the key never never give up. Hugs you are worth it and every tear drop every workout every bit of food you are worth the struggles. Keep us posted my Friend.

  • From: KaptainMorgan about 5 months ago

    The most important bit of advice I can give you is this: Do NOT beat yourself up for "off" days. Continue to move forward, one step at a time. I never look back; I only push forward. And I don't look at my "off" days as "screw ups"!!! I view them as lessons that I still need to learn about emotional eating, and that's usually when I journal. Just posting here at the Kitchen Table shows your desire to get heatlhy and fit! It's not an overnight process, so just keep that in mind. Each step you take forward is a step in the right direction! XOXOXO

  • From: stronger<3 about 5 months ago

    What you just described is the exact same situation I am in. WE CAN DO THIS! This is an amazing post. We're here with you all the way.

  • From: kellbell797 about 5 months ago

    I completely agree with Kaptain! I started over 3 or 4 times waiting to be perfect, but we are not perfect! It took me a while to figure out when you make poor choice just move on! Make the next one better! I used to use one bad choice as a reason to downslide ("well I ate a couple cookies so now the day is ruined, I'll just keep eating crap today & start fresh tomorrow") Such a bad way to think! I read an analogy that said if you drop your cell phone on the ground, would you stomp on it too?! No!!! Then why treat your body that way?!! Now I understand that perfection is never gonna happen & I try to look at the big picture...a poor choice here & there will not undo all the good choices I've made. Good luck :)

  • From: Keep!n_Up about 4 months ago

    THANKS GALS!!

  • From: BuzyKat about 4 months ago

    You know I just finished writing my first posts on this site and I shared a story very similar to yours! We are here to support each other. we can say one day at a time but perhaps its time we start looking at it as one choice at a time. This can be done!! Let's support each other and see what we can achieve :-)

  • From: keppy41 about 4 months ago

    We've all shared similar feelings. Keep the faith and remember you are worth treating yourself as best as what's out there for the taking! You can do this - it's not an obstacle, just feels that way for now ... it's a lifestyle that will leave you happy, healthy, and with loads of renewed energy! Good luck! ( ;

  • From: hcross82 about 4 months ago

    Wow, couldn't have spoken more to my heart. I have been eating clean for years now, but even those who love this lifestyle still have their hiccups (big hiccups). For me, it was simply enjoying too many drinks and then allowing that to fall in to the next day and the next. I don't like alcohol for that reason, it makes me feel bla the next day and I generally want more. I am not having a drink until my birthday next month. It's amazing how your body tells you it doesn't like something by the way you feel. Keep going hard and realize that through out your life (key word is LIFE) there are struggles in every aspect, it's about how you take on those struggles and learn.

  • From: KelliHulst about 4 months ago

    This is a great post!!! Speaking from your heart is so inspiring to others. You can do it.

  • From: LiezlCronje about 4 months ago

    I'm right there with you. Thanks for the honesty. Sometimes it feels like no one else has lapsed, but in truth it happens to us all

  • From: loreli37 about 4 months ago

    I am at this point in time also. I have lost 225 lbs. ad I have gained back 35 lbs. easily. I am DONE wit beating myself up. I have plan of attack and I am moving forward with it. You sound like you sound like you are headed back to a great start. know that nothing you eat feels better than being back at the gym and getting the body you want!

  • From: JennW about 4 months ago

    Its so refreshing to read a post like this! Thank so much for sharing!

  • From: ugonwa about 4 months ago

    Just signed up for the 5th ECD challenge!! Trusting this the motivation I need to finally get on track to healthy living and weight loss.

  • From: Alison707 about 4 months ago

    You are headed in the right direction. This post is motivates me and I hope it does the same thing to everyone else. Thank you for sharing your story. We have all been there so I'm sure we all know where you are coming from.

  • From: Andrea Nelson about 4 months ago

    Hey I am right there with you sister. This will be the umpteenth time I am starting over. My husband chuckles and says yeah ok right. But I AM going to show him I can do it, and I know you will too. Good luck and God bless

  • From: hellokitty73 about 4 months ago

    I think its great when people are honest. As a person who struggles as well its nice to know your not alone. This site has been truly motivating and I wish you all success. One thing I have learned is to not beat yourself up. When I think of how many times I have given up completly because of one slip, but its just that, a slip, and you just keep going. Cheers!!!

  • From: cath71 about 4 months ago

    Just reading this after having a few days where I totally went off the program. I had been doing so well and I am not sure exactly what prompted it, but it helped to make me realize how good I do feel when I treat my body properly. I love what Kaptain wrote and I think it is a great point of view. Learn something from this and move forward. You can do this, my friend!

  • From: love2tapmytoes about 4 months ago

    I am in the same spot..was doing so well, one slip led to another! Ugh! So difficult to get back on track.

  • From: parraw about 3 months ago

    I just joined the community and want to say Thank you SO MUCH for this post. I actually started reading and following ECD in early May while recovering from surgery. I too am struggling, but refuse to give up on myself and don't you give up either. The support here is absolutely priceless. We all CAN and WILL be successful on our health journey. Have an awesome day!!! : )

  • From: Goin'For'It about 3 months ago

    Thanks for posting - this has been my year. Putting on pants that used to fit and walking around all day in denial while cutting off my circulation! But no more. You are right we can do this. This is my first day back and I needed to know others miss the mark but start again <3

  • From: fitgrl115 about 3 months ago

    Wow - after reading your post I feel like we're on similar wave lengths. You're right - we can do this!!!!

  • From: stephanielorella about 2 months ago

    You're not alone! I've had a bad couple weeks. All we can do is start fresh! I'm not going to punish myself just start clean today!

  • From: Hillbillyamber about 2 weeks ago

    I have found inspiration to keep me going that it's a slow process and in 3 months I will see a huge change! I am a get it done, do it now, see results soon or quit person. I know right where you are. Just put a number on the calendar and remind yourself if I keep pressing on by this date I will see results. I can make it. I do better with small goals to keep me motivated.

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